"I must conquer my loneliness alone.
I must be happy with myself, or I have nothing to offer.
Two halves have little choice but to join;
and yes, they do make a whole.
But two wholes when they coincide...
That is beauty. That is love."
- Anonymous
HELLO everyone! I'd like to apologize upfront if you find my blog flaccid. I am not a graphic artist nor am I a blog techy. I do not know html, php, java, etc. In truth, I am just a newbie exploring the wonders and surprises of the Internet world. Also, through this blog I hope to express myself and share my sentiments and inner thoughts to others, hoping I can help them in one way or another.
So about the quote above, well I've read that somewhere years ago and it stayed with me. It's one of those lines that kinda cranked me up and stopped me on my tracks. For so many instances when I am harassed by time or deadlines, when I feel the burden of the world is on my shoulders, when I feel used and exploited, these lines make me realize not to forget myself.
Often, I put other people's feelings, welfare and happiness ahead of me. Yes, you may call me generous to a fault, or foolish to let myself be a doormat, and you're probably right. But in all honesty, I don't know how to say "NO" to people, especially those who are close to me. Of course, that doesn't include the extremes. I know when to say NO when there is no other choice.
What did I get out of my kindness? Aside from some small thanks and appreciation, I also lost myself in the process. I forgot the person residing inside my body, begging for my attention. I forgot the "child" in me, looking up at me with imploring eyes. I ignored the guy in the mirror staring back at me with sadness on his face.
Do not be like me. I do not LIVE...I merely exist!
